I appear to be stalking
@amandapalmer. I didn't intend to, but sometimes these things just happen. I've been following her on twitter for a while with mild interest - her album is great if you haven't bought it - through the various trials and tribulations: the rebellyon, the rent auction, her blossoming relationship with
@neilhimself. I started following her assistant,
@bethofalltrades too. It started when the auction was on and I've continued to follow her, and add her on livejournal (she's actually very interesting and awesome). Then I friended amanda on facebook and subscribed to her newsletter. This is still fan territory, but become increasingly night-vision goggly.
This week, amanda is in Edinburgh for the fringe. She's performing an official gig (I have tickets) and has been seeing things, doing other shows. Her arrival here is what has tipped me over the edge into full stalkerdom. Based on pictures she's posting I'm trying to work out where she is. I'm replying now to all her tweets, offering pointless and bizare advice, local information and recommendations and coded messages. This blog, in some ways, is a meta extension of that. I'm starting to feel wrong,
dirty. That may be the camoflage make-up.
When an artist you like is so new-media savvy, with so many ways of getting news about them, I guess this is inevitable. Partly I think the psychology of it is skewed because of the language of these websites - you're "watching" them as a "friend" who "follows" - and partly its the gossip magazine thing. We like hearing about people we're interested in, and that person can be Jordan or a former living statue.
There was an episode recently when someone following her was very public about stopping - saying it was "too much work." I understand where that feeling comes from - the girl was following, sending messages, hadn't won a competition and was pissed off. She's mistaken a one-way stream of information for a conversation.
A friendship. (you can read amanda's response
here).
I was reminded of this last night when a good friend sent me a text message, pointing out that I was getting a bit wierd on twitter. "Too stalkery?" I replied. "Not yet" she sent. Not
yet.
Twitter's a funny thing. I have many real-life friends on there, many random followers who are frequently funny and witty, who I haven't met but enjoy reading, and a bunch of famous people. The famous people are all strictly one-way (although, every so often, you'll be replied to or RT'd and a little thrill will shiver through you). That these three sorts of people occupy the same space is the other
thing - the other confusion. If you're not careful you could starting thinking of someone famous as a
friend - and that road leads to camping in the bushes at 3am.